There are many times when I have almost reached my breaking point but it didn't happen. Because if it happens, I will be blamed for leaving all the shit behind for them to handle, take care, look after, etc. I won't do that. I won't even leave a corpse behind so I have signed the form to donate my organs for transplant and my whole body for medical research. My personal belongings can be donated or sold. As for the money, if there's any left, they can gamble it away for all they want. I will leave a sum for Kitty.